And I still don't like the idea of having a party at our house - way too much work and stress and I'd really wanted a wedding where I could just enjoy myself and look pretty...and since I had to cut out the hair and makeup person, there's less of a chance of that. Sigh.
However, the one thing I really do like (LOVE) is my dress. I had to try it on the other day when the strapless bra arrived in the mail (luckily ordered before I became broke) and I got all the feels again, just wanted to giggle and prance around in it. I even made a little video which I wanted to share but can't find at the moment so I'll share a picture instead.
It's kind of perfect for me - not just like everybody else's dress, not too fancy but not too plain, kinda boho and retro and lots and lots of lace with a tiny little train. I can't imagine myself wearing anything else.
I still cry a little when I think of the plans I've had to cancel, I really thought I was going to have my dream come true but I have to remind myself that I'm getting a lovely family and kids and I never thought I'd have that and, in the end, that's the most important.
I'll have to keep telling myself that all the way up until the big day I'm afraid. Not that I don't appreciate my new little family, I do, but for once in my life I really wanted it all. And I know I'm being a big baby about it and I'll stop eventually, I promise, but right now I'm going to spend a little time feeling sorry for myself.
Maybe I should just try on my dress every day, that seems to make everything seem better!
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